Speak your heart, Don't bite your tongue.Don't get it twisted.Don't Misuse it.

So i've been going crazy. A little too crazy for therapy.
as you can see, my last few posts have been uncharacteristically short.
and choppy.

Actually, choppy is quite a characteristic usually, but there have been a couple really pointless posts. ah, well. The issue primarily is stressed. I had therapy today. I know I need it and should go, but when it comes down to it, i hate the anticipation that goes with going. So I skipped it today, except today is probably one of the days i need it most. Well... shit happens?

I don't really know. My mind has been absolutely everywhere, BUT school, which is the reason I quit my job. God, I want to learn, but I'm out of motivation and socially I'm having some issues. and Something's not quite right in my head. i've been stressed, craving control, losing motivation, becoming apathetic, and obscenely clingy with Ryan. Which needs to stop, because I know I'm probably driving him nuts. I mean, to put it in perspective, I don't need his approval/help/ input for half the stuff I do and I don't ditch my other friends to hang out with him. However, i've been going nuts on him lately, what with the crying, frequent phone calls, frequent texts and always needing a hug. I guess I'm just looking for guidance, but I'm sortof overwhelmed and avoiding it and I can't deal with things like most other kids. and Alot of things that shouldn't upset at my age and that shouldn't really necessarily be an issue, are. and that frustrates me.

*sigh*

Gah. Senioritis+ seasonal depression maybe. and Currently, stomach cramps.

ugh.