She Meant You No Harm

So, ever feel like you're tired of listening to the world?

I mean, I feel like I'm such a hypocritical anomaly.

I think it's important for people to be educated, not just in school-- to have life experiences, to learn from them, to know what they're getting themselves into, to be self-aware and aware of their surroundings.

That being said, I'm growing weary with education as it's presented.
I'm tired of credentials. I'm tired of testing. I'm tired of everyone being on their soapbox. Everyone has something to tell you. Everyone has something they feel you are severely uneducated on. I have been included in this crowd. I have plenty of things I could step on my soapbox and tell you that you NEED to know.

I'm tired of everyone else doing it.
I'm tired of doing it.

You know, sometimes I feel like I'm not doing enough with myself and that I'm completely undermining my potential. Other times, I feel like I'm too simple for this modern time. I feel like an anachronism sometimes.

I feel bound by red-tape. I also feel that structure need be established so chaos doesn't ensue. Eh, I'm just a big bundle of ill logic.

I feel like people are always so focused on talking and judging. People are always arguing. announcing. speaking. yelling. backlashing. debating. manipulating. finding loopholes. making new rules.
Just DO something?

Maybe I'm one of those stupid apathetic youth who just expects everything to be done for me.
Maybe I just want to not care and hope everything turns out for the best.

I feel that I would be better suited to a lifestyle of only cash and people. I don't need so much documentation. I don't want so much hassle.
I don't want people involved unless I want them involved. I don't want people knowing my business unless I tell them.
I don't want to be stuck in a situation I don't want to be in. I don't want everything to be a transaction.
I want people to look up and smile.

Ugh. I don't think I fit in, in whatever lifestyle this is.

Maybe it's the city life. Maybe it's just being so close to the White House, to liberals, to conservatives, to busyness and business. ugh. it all just frustrates me so.
Maybe I'd be better as a nomad, since I so often crave change.
But then I would wish for stability. Can I have both?