This House Just Ain't No Home Any Time She Goes Away

lyrics from the beautiful song "Ain't No Sunshine"

I'm listening to my boyfriend on the phone with his family talking about a relative. Judging by his side, I'm assuming someone has unexpectedly passed. It's really interesting when this sort of thing happens.I'm wondering if he'll talk to me about it afterwards seeing as how he really doesn't like to talk about his family or death. The combination naturally, just feels like it would be unspoken. I'm a little worried sometimes because of this but there isn't so much I could do.
Work was closed today because of the weather (we had 2-3 feet of snow over the weekend. it was crazy for this area), so i had my first two-day weekend since the last snow storm (a few weeks ago) and for the first time in months before then.

So i've been thinking a lot lately about the future. More specifically, I've been thinking a lot about what I've been doing now. I have no idea what the hell I'm doing to be honest. Life still doesn't feel real. I always have this feeling like I'm waiting for something to happen, but nothing ever does. or, it does, but it never feels like what I'm looking for.
Who knows?